Sleep please!

Had another headache last night at midnight. Writhing in complete pain with his sore molar, headache, elbow ache, backache and buttocks ache. So tough--nauseous again. Gave him another 1/2 advil at 6am and he did computer to take his mind off of it. I then gave him chia seeds (400cal) with OJ and raisins. However now, at 10am, he is bubbly after our bible study on patience. I then fed him chili for lunch and he played with his sister somewhat and did a little computer. Spirits good. We left for our physio. appt. at 1pm...spirits still good. Got into van and I noticed him being withdrawn while driving. I started singing to Kara's Old Mcd., Skip to my Lou, Michael Finnigan etc, and got Kyle into it and Kara, but Cory no. He is very inhibited and won't release.

So at the appt. he needed another half advil as headache/toothache was coming back. The PT seemed amazing and doesn't know what is up with Cory NOT gaining weight, but does know as a fact that his pelvis is all twisted and tilted and until we fix that, any drug will only hide pain and not fix twist. So Cory is to imagine a '$100 in his bum' and squeeze those cheeks together and tighten stomach at same time. Also, to always sit on some support for sacrum to adjust pelvis positioning. I truly felt this was a breakthrough!! Cory yawned alot but was good.

We then went to Toy's R Us as they have Christmas money from grandma, great grandma and A. Patti to spend as we didn't celebrate Christmas. SO, I said they can spend some of it on things they want. They got a stuffy each. We then went to Save On and the boys stayed in the van whilst Kara and I ran to get lettuce. Cory still in good spirits. Went to Buckshot Books and they got this pkg. of little figures for $3...although not thrilled about them buying anything, they usually get nothing and were thrilled about it. Cory still in good spirits--Kara got 3 mermaid books so she was thrilled!

Got home and wanted to do computer so I let them after I called 3 references and let A. Patti know she can book her flight. We now have new tenants coming on monday with 3 animals (yikes!--upped the rent $50/mo and will take full damage deposit. Anyway, made supper, Cory and Kyle did their thing for awhile and Cory good till about 7pm...slowly getting worse. Went to LEona's to get whiskey to dab on tooth. Cory couldn't take the taste--tried saltwater with warm--nope...so gave a tylenol. ..nothing. By 10pm he is crying in pain with mouth wide open, my stomach is nauseous. The WIERD thing is I had JUST said to Kevin a few nights back the day this all started, how Cory doesn't cry at night anymore or have bad dreams. THAT night it ALL started!! Yeesshhh!! What is with what I say!! Kevin finds it eerrie. He says I say stuff and it happens all the time so I have to watch what I say. Anyway, after seeing Lorenzo's oil, I figured his horrible screaming, in pain, figure, wasn't as bad as that so I can do this!! So I just stayed by him, got a cold cloth, a half advil, water, massaged back and told story and he settled down.

SOMETHING is going on in his brain. He is angry at us as he yelled at us in his dream the other night. We have no privacy in our house and the only time we talk is in the livingroom at night and he probably hears us. Maybe he internalized something. But more than likely it was the bloodwork scare as it was THAT night this all started and he cried 2x that day alone and now the intense and constant headache and toothache and elbowache--he is making himself very ill....Lord, PLEASE help us and him...please help us heal him and help his spirits. Bring us and take us to where we need to be and with whom we need to be with. WE are trusting YOU 100%! I cannot do this alone and no I don't have to. I feel HORRIBLE! He shouldnt' have such pain--he shouldn't have to be scared of yet another darn needle! I have learnt so much through all this and I will stop at nothing and will not allow any useless or mean Dr. near him ever again. I have not been a great advocate...I have allowed undeserving doctors to assess him and hurt him with their haphazard movements--I have allowed them to talk down and mean to him by biting my tongue instead of cursing back to show support for him....please give me strength to deal with these people in a way pleasing to you. More importantly, PLEASE bring me only worthwhile people as I will no longer tolerate anyone without a heart and conscience.